My grandmother was the greatest person I am thankful to and the greatest person in the world for me. I was abandoned by my parents when I was a kid and I was brought up by my grandmother since my parents left me. She was there through my thick and thin. She was literally my mother and father at the same time. My grandmother was everything to me.
Yes, I understand that due to her age sickness is just quick. She was in out of the hospital because of her asthma and it was been the routine for 5 years. But on that certain year it was different. Her sickness was frequent, and the intervals is short. That year I know something is wrong, but I strongly believe she could surpass it. But sadly, it was the end, my grandmother died without even saying goodbye to her.
While she was on the hospital sleeping, she died. It was a big blow to me. I felt everything crumbled. That feeling that you don’t know what to do, or what will happen tomorrow.
Days, months and years past even, I cannot surpass my grief. I still think of her every night and think of the possibilities if she is still around. She might have seen my children grow. I really need help, its like I need to move on, but I can’t.
I know what I am going through is grief and I know here is a counseling for it. While I was browsing the internet, I was taken to a site of a counseling office in Tulsa, Oklahoma and silly me I was also taken to a mommy makeover site www.mommymakeovertulsa.net.
Even if I was lost there a bit, I was able to set an appointment on the homepage of the counselor Michael. When we first met, he was so helpful with helping me gone through my depression. He gave me exercises that will help me forget my grief and channel it to a more positive, worthwhile things. I am so thankful I submitted myself to the counseling.